Times are changing but history shows it's nothing new.

  Journal entry 7-19-2021 Hey there, That weight your carrying is going to cost you. It seems like a small sacrifice in your mind because of your giving character and willingness to help so you will continue for a time yet. You will quietly continue to drag the load on until it gets too heavy and you have to stop. Where you stop you begin to unload on people that happen to be in your path. These people aren’t in any way responsible for that weight. It could be your children, your spouse, coworkers.. They will either dodge the weight or they will suffer the effects of being in your path (whether they deserved it or not.) I know you, I am you. You will continue on because you are strong and you believe you are right. You recognize that this isn't something you deserve or earned but the weight gives you a reason to hurt and you feel like pain is something you are allowed to feel. Pain has been present in your life and may have been the only thing that was dependable. Pain, always pres...

  Journal entry 9/20/2021 Every now and then I get a case that changes my thinking and puts me right in track with the divine intervention and the God of my youth. With so many political posts and division on my timeline I often find myself jaded by meme's and posts of people needing help, disengaging from clients. I try to stay in the middle and post very little about beliefs and what I consider values and post more of my cute little grandchild and all her many faces. This is one of those moments when I cannot deny God's hand in a situation. I responded to a post on a message board from a young man looking for his biological family. He knew nothing except his mother was very young. He was convinced that "when you find her I know she is going to have the bluest eyes I have ever seen, because my son has them." Usually an adoptee has ideas on what they think their parent will look like. They are usually correct! This adoption was handled in a closed state and the...

  Journal Entry: For Lacey: She was born a dreamer. She grew up in environments that were not necessarily safe or good for her and that created the dreams. The dreams in her head were her friends. They allowed her a respite from the ugliness. She was signed over as an adoptee by both parents and I like to think they knew what was best for her. Did they know they weren’t in any position to care for a child? Maybe they weren’t in love with each other and knew a family wasn’t an option. Maybe they saw her and knew she deserved better. Regardless of their reasons she ended up placed in a foster home. The girl grew up surrounded life's harsh realities and her soul was unable to be crushed. When I was contacted by her I immediately saw the dreamer. She explained her case, leaving out the ugliness. I don’t get to see that part of her past until she can trust me. We became fast friends. I love her as my own family. I take my time and slowly unravel the details of her DNA. It is a very di...